A lot of people call me weird and awkward because I’m loud and I’ll say whatever, but I find that the people who say that are the ones who are weird and awkward. Not my fault you can’t handle me. :P
Been obsessed with arm candy lately ! Don’t have enough yet ! :D
These things are so amazing. So happy that I was able to try them !
I don’t know what triggered it. Maybe it was the fact that I was exhausted and hungry or maybe it was because I was sad that I wouldn’t be able to see my boyfriend tomorrow. Or the stress of moving. Or all of it combined.. I don’t know.
But I was waiting for my class to begin, just looking through my schedule, trying to figure out my week, until I started crying. Not bawling, but tearing up. I tried to breathe it out, and distract myself, but it didn’t work.
So I got out of my chair, and took a walk down the hall. I kept taking deep breaths to calm myself down. After a few minutes, I felt slightly better.. enough to return to class and write down notes.
So class started and I began writing down the notes, but my hands were shaking. I kept having to erase and rewrite the first few words about three times. Also, I felt the tears coming back.
I honestly don’t know what happened. This wave of sadness came out of no where, and all I wanted to do was go home and crawl into bed.
As the class went on, I concentrated on the math on the board, rather than letting the tears get to me.
I guess I was just really bummed out. Every week is a long week, and there seems to be nothing exciting going on. I wake up, get ready, go to math class for three hours, return home, run a bunch of errands, homework, return back to school for my evening class, then go home and just jump on the computer for the remaining of the night. You know, I just want to go do something different.
On top of that, I’ve been feeling like I’m on the back burner (has anyone else ever heard of that expression?). I don’t really want to go into detail because well.. really I’ve been feeling like things I want aren’t important.
I thought I’d feel better writing this out, but honestly, I’m still really bummed.
Here’s to another busy busy week.
